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Monday, 5 December 2011

(18) Emotional conflict...

When I look back at my blog entries, they come across quite contradictory.
My emotions like I have explained are doing as they please.
I am pushing for this transition for Rach but at the same time finding it extremely difficult to overcome my feelings and fears.

I am going to lose my daughter, I am losing Rach. I will be losing her childhood as how can you chat to her new friends and giggle about things she has done as a youngster?  How can I embarrass her with typical photographs that mums show?
Rach popping into the bathroom when I am in the shower, its never been a problem we are the only females in the house, there are lots of little things that have been a natural occurrence, do I close my door now when I am getting changed?

I have my child who is healthy, clever, outgoing, strong, caring, sensitive and wonderful and I am so proud of.  I am really lucky we have the strongest bond and relationship any mum could wish for.
Why can I not let go and embrace the change?

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