After spending the last 5 days at W's side it was difficult leaving for work on Monday morning. W was concerned about been left alone and we had discussed that I could ask my boss if I could leave at lunchtime.
I had not had any time on my own to sort my head, so arriving to school on Monday and my colleagues showing concern didn't help my emotions! I was a blubbering wreck. I went to speak to my boss who as usual was supportive and agreed that I should leave on the Monday and Tuesday at lunchtime. I managed to get through the morning but felt more like a spare part.
My boss called me into his office this morning, he offered me some emotional support off our other Psychologist he is a Dr. I refused at first, as I could chat to Julia on Thursday, but then admitted that I am not as strong as I thought I was and it wouldn't do any harm so it's being arranged.
We went to the Drs this afternoon as W required more painkillers and a sick note. His dressing needs changing as it has dried blood and is quite hard, the nurse was not available so we have an appointment for tomorrow. After chatting on the forums he has decided to leave the dressing until Monday now as we don't want any mishaps. Not that we don't trust the nurse but the nipple has separate dressings which can not be removed and they may come off with the outer dressing.
W came out with a lovely comment at teatime which bought me back down to earth and understanding his desperate need to go through all of this... We were talking about holidays and he said just book it mum I'll come with you, W has refused numerous holidays these last few years, which I reminded him, he said no problem now I'll come anytime there's nothing stopping me anymore. Pity I can't afford to go as I would have booked something there and then!
Hello there Ms Will's mum. :)
ReplyDeleteI'm on one of the same forums your son is, which is how I found your blog.
I have just sat and read through the whole of it just now.I think reading this has done me good because although I did realise that transitioning would be difficult for the parent as well, I didn't quite grasp the extent of just how tough it can be.
You have had a huge struggle yourself getting to grips with things and still even know do have odd moments where things catch up with you a little bit, but overall I think you have done remarkabley well.
I haven't read a word of your son's blog, I just came straight to your one. But I think reading a parent's perspective for once has openned my eyes a bit, so thank you. :)
Thank you for your positive response and understanding.I hope Will's blog helps you too. Best wishes Andrea
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