Was great to have some quality time with W and Matt and also for W and Matt to spend some brotherly time together, I was one proud mum!!
The weather wasn't too hot so W coped fine with the binding, this did bring it home to me how important the next step is for W, I just want him to lead a normal life and have no barriers!!
It is getting much easier for me to call W, W and refer to him as he etc. My two friends also commented on how I was referring to him and how more at ease I appeared. I find this easier around friends and work colleagues, it still feels odd when I refer to W to family members as they still refer to him as she and Rach, going to have to bite the bullet and just do it, they do know who I am talking about!
Monday is getting closer, I have organised the time off with my boss he is so understanding, I always feel guilty when asking especially when I have just returned after a two week break!
I just want this next stage to be over and done with, mixed feelings at the moment.
I don't want to appear negative as I have come a long way, but I'm sure as a mum any fears and feelings of loss I have are normal... My child is having an operation.
I am just a little worried about how I will react, I have learnt so much about my emotions this past year and how out of control they can be.
On the positive side, W is going to be so happy and that makes me happy.
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